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part of me-
Give me a little back That you took from me then A piece of me i cant replace. There's a hole in my soul About a mile all around Begging to heal over. Because there's a piece of me missing. I just can not survive, Without what you hold in your hands, The piece of me that helps me to live. So I'll breath and struggle and flail about, Cause You still have a part of me. I remember giving it over a long time ago Thinking i would never need it again What was mine became yours And the error in my ways Through all the blissful days Was trusting that forever meant itself. Because there's a piece of me missing. I just can not survive, Without what you hold in your hands, The piece of me that helps me to live. So I'll breath and struggle and flail about, Cause You still have a part of me. Taking back what you took from me, And stealing yours while im there. Repairing these deepened wounds Inside of me, haunting me, hating me. Fixing the mistake i made one day, And never looking back. Because there's a piece of me thats been missing I'd never be able to survive without. That which you held in your hands Always seemed to help me to live on Until i took it back and regained what was lost Taking back that which was mine, That Part of Me. |
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foreign-
Take a look around... Everything is different, Nothing is the same as it was before Things i saw so familiar once Seem so changed now. And when I saw all of you You all just turned and walked away Forgetting all of the memories we shared Forgetting all of the times you cared What happened to us in this life we breathed. I feel LOST! Searching for my own little place to hide. somewhere deep inside, My own mind A new structure where I can confide in a new existance Where all of this doesnt feel Foreign to me. Take a look around... Life is what you make of it, And I must have made something wicked In order for so much change So much insanity to wrap iteslf around me Because so little seems the same And none of you remember who I am anymore Reality has taken a backseat to fantasy, A nightmare in a time When frail form could break so easily. I feel so exposed to the world All of my fear, All of my frustration, Mutilation, Desecration, Self- humiliation. I feel so alone in a world so cold, With all of my pain All this madness Sadness, Weakness, So afriad that i cant beat this Hell that ive put me through. I feel LOST! Searching for my own little place to hide. somewhere deep inside, My own mind A new structure where I can confide in a new existance Where all of this doesnt feel Foreign to me... I feel so GONE! Tearing through the bars that break me. The memories that take me, away from the bliss, A life I'm doomed to miss. And im begging for the old life Where all of this doesnt feel Quite so foreign to me Foreign to me, Forfeit this dream For a place not so foreign to me. |
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this pain-
This pain, A feeling i'm familiarized with. Seeking a change, Finding it harder and harder to cope. Eating away at my inside, Every time i hurt like this. Why cant i just get away, And never feel again... Cause all i feel is pain God make it go away, So i dont have to feel this anymore again. Another fruitful day, Spoiled by the rotton ones, Will it ever be something else that matters more? This pain, has been too long, This pain has been too long indeed I cant remember the last time I felt myself. Cause all i feel is pain God make it go away, So i dont have to feel this anymore again. All i feel is distain Burning scars upon my soul And I dont think I can take it that much more, Just make it go away. I wish i could find, My angel in the snow Something to take me away from here, To where I wanna go. To whee I can be free, Cause right now I just cant be Another victim of a world so cold. Cause all i feel is pain God make it go away, So i dont have to feel this anymore again. All i feel is distain Burning scars upon my soul And I dont think I can take it that much more, Just make it go away. And all I feel is pain (Pain) God make this go away, So I dont have to deal with this again. All i feel's distain (Pain) Leaving scars inside myself And I know that i cant deal with it anymore... Please God, just make it go away. |
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broken(dreamscape part i)-
Frailty enthralls me Disappointment bounds me To these walls, as words form meaningless principles to a shattered mentality where your promises meant Something more than nothing at all Taken away from truth and dignity only to be replaced by lies and deceit Showing me that life's one big lie. These broken dreams Through all these years Immortalized In all these tears Old fashioned memories Reborn today These broken dreams Are here to stay. Back again, this misplaced life With a growing distaste for what youve said to be reality, only to find it's borderline potential for wicked, and hate, and hurt rather than the love i was always told it would be. Broken dreams Through all these years Immortalized, In all these tears Old fashioned memories Reborn today These broken dreams Are here to stay. A little child, in a world so cold A dream so great, a thought so bold Shown the nature of reality Through harsh fatality Walked through life, questioning faith and existence Not knowing the meaning of quit, Living through constant persistence Come to grips with the agony inside Bent and broken, with no place to hide. Now waking up to embracing the truth... Cause these broken dreams Through all of the years Have been immortalized In all of these tears These olf fashioned memories Now reborn today And these broken dreams Seem here to stay. |
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flames-
Looking back down the line Everything was sublime What happened to my home sweet home? Life wasnt always bliss How could you treat me like this? This life you made so bad The worst a child could have had And now you see it all so clear You made me what you fear Dont touch the flames Turn your back upon the flame While i lay here gone to waste Im the nightmare you must face This picture you see is so clear At one time you were so near Over time we fell apart I was damned right from the start You tore my life to shreds The pieces to frayed to mend You have forsaken me With no more room to move or bend My life had many twists and turns The flames too hot my skin they've burned The memories, they have scarred These visions and thoughts are so hard to take, the walls are closing in this evil that comes from within Dont touch the flames Turn your back upon the pain Driven by your wicked ways Im the darkness that you raised The pain that you forced me to taste This pain you forced me to embrace The evil you forced me to face This pain i wish i could erase Dont touch the flames You gave me life You gave me pain And filled my heart with dark and spite you took away all that was right You are the flames Ruined my life Filled me with shame I hope youre happy with what you've done You've corrupted youre only son Bring on the flames Bring on the flames Bring on the flames Bring on the flames... ...Dark flames upon my life. |
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lies-
Am I talking to myself? As I stare back into my face Blank and filled with pain Don't tell me, that you know just how I feel Though you say it all the time, you think you're like me Don't tell me the right way to move, I don't like playing the game like you do Cause there's just the way that you look, Make up your mind... Lies and truth Do you understand these words? That I'm speaking to you now Just stare into these eyes, Your mindless I see it all so clear Your web, your lies, your wicked ways Not like me [like me] Just tell me the way you want me to move, I'm tired of fighting for my youth I'll let the waves just pass me by Taking away all I've got left Through your words you lied to me My heart inside you tried to keep To hell and back, no holding back This heart attack, your heart so black Your evil ways, I can not save Trapped in this trance, your little slave Silence your lies, banish your though And start walkin' away Cause I'm all that you're not! Its still just the things that you do Nothing about me is like you Just turn away, and don't look back Dress up your mind against the fact Don't tell me your way to move Cause I don't like playing, like you do Its all just the way that you look Make up your mind, your lies or truth! |
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rise-
Why must I feel this way? Harboring a pain I've known so long Deep inside it fades But day by day it lingers on Consuming my happiness with this hatred and fear emptying my emotions as thinking of you draws my tears One day you said you loved me the next you tore it up Some day I'll see you lonely one day you'll see me rise. Today you're memories haunt me tomorrow I'll breath again one day it'll come full circle some day you'll see me fly! I hate the past When it puts me through a ringer And your pain put on me Leaves me without a thing I can do to save my sanity, so ill let it slip again and let you see what happens When I rise and fall, and rise again! One day you said you loved me the next you tore it up some day ill see you lonely one day you'll see me rise. Today you're memories haunt me tomorrow I'll breath again one day it'll come full circle some day you'll see me fly! That day you said you loved me the next I fucked it up Tomorrow you'll be sorry today you'll live it up the day before you fueled my fear today I'm gettin my revenge the next day you wont catch me slippin so right now ill shed my tear You think you're love defined me? You think you're still the best? You claimed your love passed by me But now you're like the REST! You played me like a fool You walked right out the door This time I'm letting it all out No more comin back for more! One day you said you loved me the next you tore it up some day ill see you lonely one day you'll see me rise. Today you're memories haunt me tomorrow I'll breath again one day it'll come full circle some day you'll see me fly! Today it comes tumbling down tomorrow ill live anew some day you'll say you loved me again you'll ask for more but now its finally over and today I see you're just a whore. You said [you loved me] You said [everything was sublime] You said [you loved me] I'm sayin [this is the last time] |
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me-
As I look upon this crowded hall My body trembles, and my head starts spinning I peer out through the crowd to see your silhouette But you turn your back as my heart falls Im the one you overlooked Im the one your judgment mistook Im the one you saw so weak Now he's gone...insignificant me Whenever you walked past, my eyes were locked on your perfect glow and perfect beauty But when you walked right on by The look faded, and left the remnants of happiness Im the one you didnt see Im the one you would never be Im the one you saw so small Now he's gone...insignificant me Time after time, day by day You captured my heart, and tore it away After so long, you still cant see What you truly are lies inside of me Im the one you overlooked Im the one your judgment mistook Im the one you saw so weak Now he's gone...insignificant me Im the light you failed to see In your deep dark life of pain Im the love you just couldnt take In your simple life that you'd forsake Youre the love ive always dreamed And youre the light i longed to be Someday You'll know when you walked those halls you failed to see... That man you needed...insignificant me. |
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fraud-
Yesterday i walked outside and everything was changed I wasnt the same as everyone else. I tried walking tall, but everyone just spurned me For who i had become. It took me a while to figure out exactly what had happened But it finally i came to see. The world had stopped, and everyone was the same, But something had changed inside of me. I can never be what you want me to be Cause i am just who I am Im not your pet, im not your slave Im just who i want to be. I cant see through your blurry vision, into your world of fakes and frauds All i see is a pack of drones, pretending to be Gods. You look at me with my black nails, and my fishnet shirts, like im the enemy. But you fail to realize Youre the coward in a sheltered world, While this change has taken place inside of me. So play your games, you fake, you fuck So pretend to be immortal you're weak, you suck! You wanna throw down, Bring it on! You wanna get tossed, Lets get it on! Cause youre a fake! Im just a freak in a poor man's world, Struggling to find my own In your culture of hatred and stupidity. Im just a freak, in your little world and i'll make it through In your shrewd little world of stereotypes. Outside you see me and stare you dont know what you see but you hate it, and despise it though you dont know what you see. Youre criticism stains my frail mind, but it wont keep up for long sooner or later ill show you all cause im out to prove some wrong! I wanna see you make a change In yourself, and in this world Im callin your bluff, im callin you out, in the middle of this tattered world! I can never be what you want me to be Cause i am just who I am Im not your pet, im not your slave Im just who i want to be. I cant see through your blurry vision, into your world of fakes and frauds All i see is a pack of drones, pretending to be Gods. Ill never be what you want me to be Cause im everything your not Im not your pet, im not your slave im me and thats all ive got. I'll never see through your blurry vision, cause youre just a fuckin fake! And all i see are mindless drones Lets see how much it'll take. So bring it on, I'll show you truth I'll open your eyes Like it or not Cause this is your last chance to break away, or just be another fraud. |
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end of everything-
Why...does it all...have to feel... like a never-ending dream? Wont stop hurting wont go away Wont allow me to live through it And im left with nothing to do Ive looked around Seen through these eyes so dark again Fought for a reason But finding nothing to keep me from... This evil inside This pain i cant possibly hide, Eating away at my soul Another experience Another day passing Another way to see just how life fucks with me Tomorrow is no more No meaning, to decide Which path it is that i need to take Fighting for a reason But finding nothing, to keep me alive anymore This evil inside This pain i cant possibly hide Eating away at my soul Another day ending And still i sink further Into all of this pain i conceal The taste of defeat The taste of enigma The taste of a thousand deaths upon me When tomorrow comes crashing Down on the ones who i loved, Will i be remembered for what i'd become? Or will i be haunted, With dead memories of better days Will anyone remember me at all? This evil inside This pain i cant possibly hide Eating away at my soul Another day ending And still i sink further Into all of this pain i conceal [Im breaking down!] And there's nothing or noone to save me From this fate thats befallen to me My salvation lies, At the edge of a sharp knife Tearing through my heart one last time Its over, its done with, no more fucking humility I wish that this did not have to be. This evil inside This pain i cant possibly hide Eating away at my soul Another day ending And still i sink further Into all of this pain i conceal Remember me as I was, not who i am now As i throw it all away one last time No more pain, no more suffer, No hidden destruction. All i see red, all i see blackness And im numb as it all comes tumbling down. |
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thinking of you-
If ignorance is bliss Then youre swimming in heaven As i stand before you, breaking, broken Starved for affection as you turn your back again. Im remembering of you constantly As the thought of you runs through my head before i close my eyes to sleep With nothing to dream of, Nothing to live for, But you overwhelming in my mind. I know you love me You just wont let yourself fall Into despair Before i come to your rescue, your savior, your prince charming Somehow youre blind to the fact, That your love for me is real But i know i can make you love me I just have to make you mine. You pretend you dont see me, you dont know me, you dont feel me But i know im in your mind. You've haunted my visions for years And you've drained me of myself I must have you for my own Cause without, there's nothing anymore You dont really want anyone else I can tell you that right now Cause you have to be mine, Or else neither of us deserve to be. I know you love me You just wont let yourself fall Into despair Before i come to your rescue, your savior, your prince charming Somehow youre blind to the fact, That your love for me is real But i know i can make you love me I just have to make you mine. Here he comes, here i stand As I watch you two pass by me Hand in hand. You act like i dont exist Like im invisible in your eyes But you'll be mine, one way or the other Cause without me your heart dies. Im thinking of you, As i slowly close the door Knowing this was the only way To keep you coming back for more Dont try to fight me Dont even try to run Cause forever you'll be mine Together we'll have some fun. I'll show you eternity I'll show you grace If only i could wipe that terrified look off of your face. Now I'll make you love me Now I'll make you see How little the world means to you And how much you mean to me. No more will you look past me, No more will you walk away, Cause now you'll be mine forever Forever and a day. It could've been so different Why did you have to make it so hard All i wanted was to love you And now it's gone too far. As i watch you squirm for freedom As I watch you beg to go I realize I'm just failure, And It's time to end the show... [Gunshot]' |
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the light-
Why must i continue hating myself, For things i cant see, for things i cant be for the lifetime of pain ive endured like a tortured soul, A sinner in a world full of saints. Punished for things i never knew i did But suffering for ages, Self loathing and abuse, my only true companions So afraid to give, but too weak to try... Wasted years and wasted tears wash over me Submitting to these terrible thoughts taking over me But i curl up and sleep With nothing more to see Wondering if ill ever notice The light inside of me Falling so far from grace, with nothing to show for this life that ive lived Drowning in this non peace seeking a glory undefined by what i know is real inside myself i know its there waiting to be caught, waiting to be revealed, longing for the deep seeded peace that comes with the price you pay to search within yourself, conquer your demons, and bring back the light... Wasted years and wasted tears wash over me Submitting to these terrible thoughts taking over me But i curl up and sleep With nothing more to see Wondering if ill ever notice The light inside of me Ive wasted all that i have going for me Fighting these thoughts forever haunting me Burdening this fear, harboring this hate with eyes which can not see But somehow someday ive gotta see this light inside of me When i see it glow amidst the dark I'll think of the fight and the days ive spent leading to this one moment where blind eyes now see and see clear to eternity and my substance is unleashed All this time ive wasted fighting it all, it seems all i had to do was open my eyes and look in the mirror cause the light was always there longing to be seen longing to be held and finally i can see this glow covering me whole is the light inside of me. |
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deep inside-
I write these words Pen on page Knowing deep inside This feels so strange Life in me has run away Yet deep inside these wounds still stay Ill Piece together this broken life Through the dark ill run and hide Until I can ward it all away Down deep inside of me. To this day my soul remains Trapped in this brittle, tattered stage Built on lies and shattered dreams Thrown away or so it seems Time to make it go away, Time to make it disappear! Ill piece together this broken life Through the dark ill run and hide Until I can ward it all away Down deep inside of me [NEVER AGAIN!] Will I let it get the best of me [NEVER AGAIN!] Will I let it take control of me [THIS TIME!] I'm gonna stand up high above it all [ITS TIME!] This time my fear will fall. Ill shun away this misplaced fear Cause its never gonna hold me down Now I've torn it all away And hid it deep inside... ...down deep inside of me |
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searching-
Look into my eyes and tell me what you see Cause I'm not sure I'm all the man that I can be What once was there has gone away But I'll just wait for another day In the new day, I'll find myself And maybe somewhere on my journey I'll find my place. So when in fact that new day comes I'll know where I am Is right where I belong So many years I've spent, On my search for grace. So long I've lived, Without a face. But the past I'll leave Without a trace And wait for yet another day. In the new day, I'll find myself. And maybe somewhere on my journey, I'll find my place. So when in fact that new day comes I'll know where I am, Is right where I belong When my path is blurred And all seems faint I'll pick up my step, And walk on tall Knowing I'll make it Through it all In the new day, I'll find myself And maybe somewhere on my journey I'll find my place So when in fact that day comes I'll know I have found... Where I belong |
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angelus-
Watching you fade into oblivion Is such a strange sight to see Knowing the only one capable of returning you to grace... ...is me I can bring you back Better than before I can make you whole again I can make you breathe again, Forevermore Descending through the atmosphere On gilded wings I soar While you wait for your prince charming To waltz right through the door. But somewhere along the way You lost faith and hope and will To wait and look a little longer As time was standing still. I can bring you back, Better than before I can make you whole again I can make you breathe again, Forevermore. I found you lying there Bound by chains of lonely days, Gasping for air, wishing for death And that all this pain would go away. But with one gaze into your fragile soul The pain escaped your heart Then and there your soul transformed Cleansed with a brand new start. So believe me when i tell you... I can bring you back Better than before I can make you whole again I can make you breathe again, Forevermore. So wont you take my hand, Ill make sure its all all right Let my heart entwine with yours If only for the night. You've searched so desperately For someone to trust, Someone to love, Well stop cause here i am. Rest your mind its over now, And tomorrow theres no need to fuss Cause the dawn will come In a brand new world Where all that matters is us. We'll ride into eternity On gilded wings we soar Further and further into the night Where your fear exists, no more. |
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sweet salvation-
I find myself drawn to your Radiance, profound Taking in every breath of your life And sighing out a little piece Of a hatred i've always known. Filling me with your eternity Giving me everything that you are I can feel you inside of me And I just cant get enough Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Your eyes give me a little sense of Everything that i have always been And your heart beats to me Like everything i've always heard or seen, With my blinded eyes But now I see clearly into forever Filled with your grace and Giving myself back, Show me this solace I feel so near. Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Feeding me with your words, I can feel you deeper in my heart Pushing onward down into my soul Taking away everything I've hated And mysteriously making me whole Gimmie a little taste, Salvation Gimmie a little time, Your revelation Gimmie a little ride, temptation ...Cause i just cant get enough Gimmie a little taste of your sweet salvation, A place where I can let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Gimmie a little taste of your sweet salvation, A place where I can let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. |
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sweet salvation-
I find myself drawn to your Radiance, profound Taking in every breath of your life And sighing out a little piece Of a hatred i've always known. Filling me with your eternity Giving me everything that you are I can feel you inside of me And I just cant get enough Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Your eyes give me a little sense of Everything that i have always been And your heart beats to me Like everything i've always heard or seen, With my blinded eyes But now I see clearly into forever Filled with your grace and Giving myself back, Show me this solace I feel so near. Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Gimmie a little taste Of your sweet salvation, A place where I can Let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Feeding me with your words, I can feel you deeper in my heart Pushing onward down into my soul Taking away everything I've hated And mysteriously making me whole Gimmie a little taste, Salvation Gimmie a little time, Your revelation Gimmie a little ride, temptation ...Cause i just cant get enough Gimmie a little taste of your sweet salvation, A place where I can let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. Gimmie a little taste of your sweet salvation, A place where I can let go of all my burdens. Gimmie a little time With your sweet revelation And you can make me Change my mind. |
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bring it-
This is a song for all of you... All of you who've ever been abused... Ever been pushed around. Yeah, this is for everyone Whose ever wanted to stand up Quit taking people's badgery... AND FIGHT BACK! You've pushed while I've pulled You'd bend while I broke You saw my weakness and just had to exploited it, Just had to contest it, Had to look superior to an inferior And I just wont take it anymore! You want to take it all away? Come on and show me deep inside You want me fragile, insecure? Come on and SHOW ME! You'd like my world come crashing down? You wanna see me stumble and fall I wont play your games anymore So bring it on Come on, and bring it, BRING IT! Another day, another time You shred my soul You rape my mind Again and again Screaming your hatred Taking my life Before I can react You'll bring me right back down Into your violent despair And if I could fight you, I'd make you take back All of the damage you caused You wanna take it all away? Come on, and show me deep inside You want me fragile, insecure? Come on and SHOW ME! You'd like to see me try and fail See me tremble, see me scared I wont play your games anymore So come on, Just bring it, BRING IT! Wasted away Never to know the reasons why You played the game the way you did Making me pay for your mistakes And taking away everything I had But you played your game So well you thought, So flawless, so right But it's checkmate now And you're gonna see The way we really play the game, in this life tonight! You wanna take it all away? [BRING IT!] Come on, and show me deep inside [BRING IT!] You want me fragile, insecure? [...bring it...] Come on and SHOW ME! [SHOW ME!] You'd like to see me try and fail [...bring it...] See me tremble, see me scared [...bring it...] I wont play your games anymore So what's it gonna be When I bring it? [BRING IT!] |
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my mistress-
Shackles calling to me Darkness falling through me Sacred silence, Through my wicked, wicked ride. Fast asleep, my conscience Far away, to stop me As she beckons me to proceed Deep into the night. Pain is just a game And she likes to play it well To me its all the same My own restraint Has gone away, never to return again Full of pain and torture Unleashing it on her. When she calls my name I can feel her eyes, Prying down on me. When she turns to me It's then that i can see Just what she's become, My Mistress Clawing at my purity, Tearing at my sanity, My mistress strikes again Leaving me wanting, Leaving me helpless, Leaving me begging for more. Feeding my desire And fueling this inferno down deep inside of me. Pain is just a game And she likes to play it well To me its all the same My own restraint Has gone away, never to return again Full of pain and torture Unleashing it on her. When she calls my name I can feel her eyes, Prying down on me. When she turns to me It's then that i can see Just what she's become, My Mistress Beneath her little gothik frame Beats a little baby devil dame Twisting, turning, my soul is burning Yearning for more of what she's got. Pawing, clawing, Raking my skin Making me want her even more. Pain is just a game And she likes to play it well To me its all the same My own restraint Has gone away, never to return again Full of pain and torture Unleashing it on her. When she calls my name I can feel her eyes, Prying down on me. When she turns to me It's then that i can see Just what she's become, My Mistress. |
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for you(dreamscape part ii)-
If someone came to me before And told me I would live my life This way, I don't think I could ever make it true Now you come back to me Telling me of your plight That the struggles ceased Since Ive arrived Taken in by it all Taking me back to that place Someone once told me I'd see [DREAMS!] Relished moments inside my head [DREAMS!] Cherishing these things you've said [DREAMS!] Come to life in visions of you [DREAMS!] This must be what life is like, When dreams... When dreams come true Show me this thing you've grown into This dream you hold so near to you Take me to that spot you run and hide Where safety is but a word in your heart Protected by this light you call your own This light you call love, This light you call peace, This light you call endure, This light you call me... How in the world Do i deserve all this? With all this bottled up Pain I've never missed Watch this growth, Feel this change, This reality is but a... [DREAMS!] Relished moments inside my head [DREAMS!] Cherishing these things you've said [DREAMS!] Come to life in visions of you [DREAMS!] Hanging on to this new-found life [DREAMS!] Free from agony and strife [DREAMS!] Manifest in visions of you I guess this dream has all come true ...this dream for you |
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everything-
I never wanted to be who I am today But somewhere I know that That deep down inside Everything will be ok. I wished for words to scribble down, Not sure of where it'd take me, Only hoping you could listen and feel Even one syllable of what I say. Thank you all for feeling this with me Though i wish it weren't so Thank you for the comfort you showed me Allowing me to grow. Thank you for always being there, Even when I didn't feel like i deserved... Thank you for showing that you care. Thank you for everything. It's sad you have to have experienced what I write In order to feel its grip It's sad that these words had to impact you In order to make sure you wouldn't slip. It's hard to think that people feel exactly like me When I've always felt alone Sort of sad though to me Knowing you had to live your life like mine. Thank you all for feeling this with me Though i wish it weren't so Thank you for the comfort you showed me Allowing me to grow. Thank you for always being there, Even when I didnt feel like i deserved... Thank you for showing that you care. Thank you for everything. I can look into all of your eyes and I can see The pain that i hide inside of me. Your faces glow in discontent Lost souls looking for a place to go Where you can be yourselves and never know What it feels like to be hated, spurned or depressed. As your heartbeat quickens inside your chest I can feel your pain, and somehow write it down on page Only wishing i never felt all of that fear and rage. Thank you all for feeling this with me Though i wish it weren't so Thank you for the comfort you showed me Allowing me to grow. Thank you for always being there, Even when I didnt feel like i deserved... Thank you for showing that you care. Thank you for everything. I give away another piece of me Each time i write these words, For you to find solace in the fact That you're not alone and I feel the same. And when I'm all done I retreat to my peace, where i let that part of me go Sure in thought That it may help you to grow, stronger and better Able to take all of the madness And set free all of your sadness Free from the hole you crawled down into. Thank you for everything that you've been, And everything that you are, Giving me peace of mind. Thank you for everything that you've been, And everything that you are... Thank you for it all. |
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